Job journey

As we begin the journey of finding a job I wanted to write a few thought so I don't forget....
 It is only October and already I feel so done! There haven't been many opportunities and the ones we have found keep turning out to be crappy for one reason or another. So funny because one of the first jobs we came across was in AZ started at a good salary, but we weren't sure if Beegh was going to get enough surgery days etc. Ha now after looking at so many other jobs that job sounds like a dream! They liked Beegh, but they needed someone right away. I know Beegh will find a job and it will all work out, but right now we are just frusterated and so unsure of what to do. Do we go back to AZ and more than likely not have as good of a job? Do we live somewhere else and get paid more along with more surgery for Beegh? Sometimes I wonder if we're asking too much, but I really don't think we are. Beegh has worked so hard he deserves to get the job he wants. I would love to just fast forward to the time when all of this is done. I am also starting to get anxious for this little boy to get here! I am ready to not feel so tired! This post is totally me just complaining, but really I just feel like we are in a hard spot right now. It will be nice to have all this figured out. I want to be at a place where we feel good and excited about our decision. Wish us luck!